wheee~

a long hectic exciting fun-filled tiring week it has been!

monday: i finally get to meet huiying! it was a last min arrangement and im so so happy to meet her. although we're in 2 separate schools, the distance didnt bring us apart. instead it brought us much closer together. (: we had more things to talk about and im glad we can still pour out our woes to one another. i rmb the good old secondary days when we will always find each other and cry together whenever one of us was feeling down. it's sad we cant confide in each other as often as we want too. but the friendship has been going strong and i will not let anything affect it. i love you girl! let's not give up and work hard towards our dreams! (:



tuesday: the sun was really terrible during our morning PE. always so suay cuz the blazing sun wld be there whenever we had morning PE. anyway i nearly fainted again during a game of netball. stars will dancing infront of my eyes and felt breathless. am i that weak???? haizzz. or is the sun playing some dirty tricks on my eyes? i rmb one PE teacher telling me to go for a full body checkup before. but i brushed aside his advice. im quite prepared to see a doctor soon. but... but... pple i love and trust are not supporting me. im in such a dilemma now. ='( [i really hope u wont be upset with me again after reading this (if u ever read this) ... i dun think u understand what's really going on my side... i really need ur support now... and not u going against me too...]



wednesday: sad things aside, we had our first round of exco selection. it feels so nice being in a different seat all together. hahah. i decided to spice things a lil by adding some random (or rather crappy) questions. first one: if you have got one last wish left on this Earth, what will it be? the second: if you have 1 hour left in your life, what will you do with it? i was really impressed by one girl who answered the first question promptly.

"i wish that my loved ones i left behind will not be sad over my passing."

i was indeed impressed as i wldnt have thought of that.

to answer the 2nd question myself, i will spend it looking back all the photos i have kept in my folder so that i will bring all those memories along with me :D


thursday: ajc annual sports' meet! i had a pretty fun time with all the cheering and crapping around with my class. we did our very own class kallang wave and dominoes. hahah. super high. the highlight was the cheerleading event in which our very own jia hui n clarence took part. cheerleading events never fail to remind me of my sec 1 days in which i was coerced into it. i had no choice! i rmb putting up with all the criticism and humiliation. anyway, im proud of jia hui and clarence. u're arldy winners in our hearts! (:


friday: woots! AJ IDOL! it was better than last year's. the singing, dance and band were of a high standard. i had a smashing time cheering and screaming for the contestants. hahah. (: felt so sorry for 'esctasy' band cuz they thought they had won due to some technical errors but they impressed me for showing such wonderful sportsmanship.


here am i feeling so worn out by this week. luckily this weekend is a long one! ((: time for me to catch up on my sleep again or rather my tutorials. sadly, i've to be up at like 545am tml for the volunteer stint at sentosa tml. hope it will lotsa of fun. pls pray i wont have a sunburnt again. i hate that! i still got that ugly tan on me. hahah.



i guess i haven't been a pretty good mood nowadays. if i have ever irritate or unknowingly snap at any of you guys, pls forgive me yeah. sorry!



* pls dun let this story end with tears.

posted by pam @ 11:44 PM 0 comments

friends for life

when two people have shared
as much as you and i have:
whey they've opened up their hearts,
shared their dreams,
thoughts and fears;
when two people know each other well enough
to know if sadness is hiding behind a smile
or if happiness is glowing in their eyes;
when they've shared
so many laughs,
and when each other's pain
at times has triggered tears;
when two people believe in one another
and are always sincere to each other;
when they have trusted
one another with the truth
tat lies within -
then you can be sure
that they're friends for life...
just like you and me.

- Zoe Dellous



i didnt get to play much at the funfair. :( was busy manning to stalls of my class and interact. so happy our class managed to sell all of the popcorn and cheesy hotdogs. i guess the FOC really worked! (: and proud of interact to raise quite a sum for the spore cheshire home and the tsunami thailand victims. i must say the students and teachers are generally quite generous.



um. i think im back on track after a week of extreme dejection. did anybody realise tat???? i guess most ppl didnt. but to those who showed their concern, i really appreciate it. ((: im just dreading the arrival of week 8. arghs.


oinkk. snorts. grunts. munchh. chummp. burps. squionk.

posted by pam @ 8:55 PM 0 comments

this is the period of time when i find my life so meaningless. this human race to be top academically is getting really tiring. and i really feel like stoping all together. it is really really demoralising to work your butt off and found out it didnt pay off. the feeling of being lousy of yourself really puts me down. my shi fu tells me to use my brain a little more; just a little more. but i tried!!! such sheer frustration of not doing well enough can really drive a person sheer desperation too.

i have remedials for every subject - maths, chemistry and physics. and im still not doing well enough. teachers, family and friends are giving me SO much pressure. when can all this stop??!! im really sick of not doing well enough. urks!

i seem to be failing in every aspect of my life right now and i really mean it.

please please dun give me anymore prep talk.







on a more happier note, im loving kids by every visit to daybreak! hahah. there's this new p6 kid called alvin and i think he got a crush on me. OH NO! hahah. kids nowadays are maturing too quickly. anyway he kept calling me and wanting to talk to me when he has his own tutor. and when another kid told me he wanted to marry me, i freaked out! LOL. gives me the creeps! hahah. (x


if in the future i found out im unable to have children of my own, i will probably just kill myself. hahhah.

posted by pam @ 11:36 PM 0 comments

it's so interesting to note that the world is indeed so small. hahah. i really got a shocked when i knew my sixth sense was true. it was really based on my initution. (x but most imptly, this helped me break my months of communication barrier between him and i. i have finally overcome my fears. :D

anyway this is one hell of a hectic week for me or for all fellow ajcians. monday was both physics CT and maths class test. tml will be our chemistry pre-SPA. thurs wld be my most dreaded maths CT. sat will be our family cum fun fair which we haven't started preparing anything at all. but i cant wait for the weekends!!!

surprisingly with this hectic crazy schedule, i still have the time to go ps with jeri n koon yesterday to eat ajisien. yum yum* thanks to jeri for her treat! (: i really feel the camp in march really brought 3 of us so so much closer together. and i just found out we all have many things in common. when i first met koon, she was facing some problems frm the matters of the heart. subsequently when i met jeri, she was facing the same prob too. i think that may be one of the various reasons we all can click so well together. (x





will someone pls cry together with me...........

posted by pam @ 8:45 PM 0 comments

to this particular person i knew frm primary school but never really talked to you before:

i dont know if u still read my blog. but ur entries really strike a chord in my heart. i feel i can connect with what u're going thru now. i was facing the same hatred towards them or maybe not as intense. i just wish i can help you in one way or another as i fully understand the pain and agony of what it is like to be in that situation. but im truly happy for you that you've such supportive friends around you. that's a blessing you should be happy about. (: last friday, at the sports' heats, i looked at you and u gave me this fierce look. i thought u seemed angry with me (thou i duno why) but behind those angry eyes, you looked sad. okay. i duno if i was imagining things. haha. but seriously, i do hope u will be truly happy. (:




a happy facade cant last long.
i appear strong on the outside but deep down, i still need some love - family .
whenever i think of the incidents, it really cuts my heart open.
if drops of water can cut through a stone, then words can scar a heart.
this sentence really makes sense.


but im glad things have changed for the better. (:

posted by pam @ 9:15 PM 0 comments

phew~

one long hectic week is finally over! monday and tues seems to pass very quickly. but when all the tutorials are cramped in wednesday, it is when time starts to crawl really slowly. and when thurs arrives, you end up really shagged and yearn for friday's arrival. finally when you notice everybody around you seemed in a daze and eyes half-closed, you know friday is finally HERE! ((:

the past weekend has been an unforgettable one for me. i was literally indulged in pure joy and happiness!

friday- i ponned school the first time! haha. stayed at home dutifully to complete my tutorials. in the night, my family and i went down to the safra club at changi area. the bungalow room was superb! so much nicer than the rest of the chalets i have been to. upon reaching there, my dearest cute 9 year old cousin showed me where i was to sleep that night. i didnt even bring anything for the night as i didnt plan to stay! haha. i didnt want to see her sad so i decided to stay just for her. after a night of sheer joy and laughter, my family went home and i faster grabbed some clothes b4 rushing out of the house. my uncle came to drive me back to the chalet. it was alrdy nearing 1am and when i reached the chalet, i found out my cousin arldy FELL ASLEEP! haha. wad for i stay right?? xP i had problems falling asleep at night; was in deep thoughts of certain issues. i wanted to talk things out to anyone but guess it was just too late in the night.

saturday- i woke up after 4 hours of sleep! my cousin and i started taking crazy weird poses for the camera. haha! had a good laugh! at abt 7am, when my aunt and uncle were out, we started to singing all the oldie songs. crazy us. we went swimming and played arcade in the morning! it was really fun. (: at night, the bbq party was indeed a feast! there were so much food. i ate from 630 to 9pm. think i've put on back the weight i have lost during the camp. at abt 10pm, almost all my relatives went to play bowling. it was my first attempt! and i got a miserable score of 32. haha. so embarrassing! reached home at nearly 1am and knocked out my bed. was so dead tired.

sunday- after chiong-ing all my homewrk, jeri and i went out to meet yexiang, junren, pengfei weihuang to celebrate yexiang's bday. yexiang didnt know we were going and the surprise was really successful! (: jeri had really funny ideas but glad she didnt use them. haha. once again, i had really fun time with them. but most of the time i was talking to jerica and laughing with her. cuz all the guys were talking abt army and their future studies! pang sei us! xP


well last weekend i really played too much. so this weekend i must buck up and start to get serious. must really force myself! i think the naggings are necessary to push me to study. (:



koon, i really do hope u will feel better soon. seeing you like this really makes me sad too. i understand you may not want to tell me wat exactly has happened but i really do care for you. hope u love urself and not make us worry for you yea. (:

posted by pam @ 9:24 PM 0 comments